Excuses are dangerous. Start becoming accountable and your life will dramatically change.
As an addict I used to make hundreds of excuses every single day. Everything was an excuse, every horrible thing I did had a reason for existing. I was never accountable for my actions even though I knew I had to be. But when you feed the monster the monster takes over and you lose control, of your life and of your decision making. If this is happening to you, you must begin by letting go of excuses, and with an extreme amount of effort, you shall make it through to the other side. Get rid of excuses. They are toxic.